23 August 2021

When Will I Be Back?

From the outset I’d like to say that I do intend to continue making online content in the future, but by the time you’ve finished reading this post it will become clear why I need to step back at the moment, as I go through some major adjustments in my life.

I’ve decided that the best way to initially explain what I’ve been going through this past year is by a written post on my site, though I do plan on talking about this in the future, via my usual video format. For me, 2020 was the perfect storm. We’ve all had our trials and tribulations during this time, with lockdowns causing mayhem in our lives, but my experience has been made so much worse for one particular reason. 

Before I say what this is, I’ll briefly start with the things many are already aware of. Not only was I dealing with the issues of lockdowns restricting our fundamental liberties on an economic level, along with basic everyday freedoms, I’ve also had to deal with the way censorship continues to radically cripple free speech online, making it practically impossible for me to create content in the manner I’m known for.

The last straw in this regard was when BitChute basically modified the popular tab so that it technically curates what’s visible on the site. This ended my potential to easily reach an audience on a video sharing site, especially when at the start of 2021 my content was getting so much traffic on BitChute that it was beginning to double YouTube. Some will talk about one workaround being to create your own independent platform, but unless you have a massive online audience, this will rarely compare to the views you get on a website that brings many content creators together in one place.

I’ll now reveal the biggest thing that’s taken place in the past year that’s turned my life upside-down; my divorce. At the time of writing it hasn’t been finalised, but that shouldn’t be far away. I’ve always been a major advocate of marriage and family, and despite my divorce, I still am. While I do need to be careful when it comes to what I say about this due to legal formalities, this experience has helped me garner wisdom that I can impart to other men living in a very difficult climate for relationships with women. 

This is not the time to get into this, and some things about my divorce will always be a private matter, but one thing I will add here is that I feel my ex has become a very different person to the one I once knew. The simplest way I would describe this change is someone who now aligns with feminist attitudes about relationships and female purpose in the modern world. I sincerely believe that this largely stems from the corporate culture of her workplace, gradually changing her until she turned her back on the conservative and Christian values that we as a couple were cultivating in our marriage and family.

One more thing I will say here about my divorce is that, despite the fact that some will revel in Shadenfreude laden bouts of “I told you so,” (I’ve always disagreed with naysayers who insist that marriage and relationships with women in the modern world always end badly for men), people should bear in mind that my divorce hasn’t led to me paying child support, or losing contact with my children (I take care of them several days/nights per week). 

Equally, the financial settlement for my divorce should leave me in a position to move on in my life. That’s not to say splitting from someone you’ve been with for many years hasn’t been extremely challenging, or that I haven’t had to be very shrewd when negotiating my divorce, but I do think there’s light at the end of a very dark tunnel. It’s certainly helped that I’m well researched when it comes to the pitfalls of divorce and the more sinister side of female nature.

As a result of the experience of my divorce, I’ve accumulated a wealth of knowledge and wisdom that I believe will help me to create the kind of content that men, and even women, will find insightful. Given that it’s so difficult to make any content online which doesn’t violate big tech terms of service, in this day and age, this could prove to be a blessing in disguise because I’ve found that practical advice, connected to ‘Manosphere’ style content, is still getting a relatively good amount of traffic. 

While there are things you still need to be careful about mentioning, I feel as though it’s time to revisit Manosphere style content again in the near future, as an older and wiser person. Some may recall that this was the kind of content I began to cover on my YouTube channel over 10 years ago, so now I’ve come full circle. Not everything I cover will be related to divorce, and I have other ideas about practical and real world areas I’d like to cover, as I transition into a new phase of my life.

With all this in mind, I’ve decided that I need time to finalise my divorce before I get back in the saddle, so to speak. Additionally, my divorce has changed my financial situation a great deal, so I now need to generate new forms of income. I’m also retraining, with the aim of starting a new business in the relatively near future. This gives me the advantage of not relying on income generated through my online content, though this doesn’t mean I’d do it for free because time is the most valuable commodity, and frankly I think my content is worth more than that. However, not relying on this income does give me the breathing space I need to be more relaxed about this content.

Most people wouldn’t need to mention their divorce to an online audience, but due to the kind of content I cover online, it wouldn’t be fair to my audience if I kept this hidden, if I were to continue. I will once again add, however, that the emotional turmoil of my divorce is far worse than any other aspect, since I’m managing to preserve my relationship with my children, and work towards the kind of financial settlement that I can rebuild from. In many ways this has all lit a fire under me that will probably make me more successful moving forward, because if there’s one thing I’ve realised during this time it’s that I can only truly rely on myself, though I must give credit to some very supportive friends during this time, new and old.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone that’s stuck with me over the years. Thanks also to those contacting me to ask when I’m coming back and how I’m doing, and a special thank you to those who continue to donate, even though I’m currently taking a break. Hopefully this post will help people gain some perspective about the sheer scale of the struggle I’ve endured over the last year or so - the silver lining being that this struggle will lead to new experiences to draw from when making content in the future.


  1. Sorry to hear about the break up of your family.

  2. sorry to hear that..I wish you all the very best. Thank you for your research. Love your content!

  3. You will only emerge stronger and wiser out of this mess.

  4. Sorry to hear about this Mr E. Your channel is great, please come back stronger and better.

  5. I hope things work out for you, both financially and in relationship with your children and dealing with your ex-wife. With time you may even start a new family with someone else.

    As for the nay sayers, we can not control other people. At best we can control ourselfs most of the time and influence others mainly through our actions not our words. A relationship always requires the cooperation of both people.

  6. On the topic of video platforms, Odysee seems to largley have replaced BitChute as the free speech platform. It is heaps and bounds better from a technical and user interface standpoint than BitChute. I would recommend that you strongly consider it when you start making videos again.

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